Plans

Ahh so I am currently in class typing this because we have a work period today. I have worked a little bit, but I am tired and hungry and I figured this would keep me more awake. We only have like 20 minutes left in here so why not do something I enjoy...

Thank goodness (haha get it) it is only a two day week this week. Honestly, we should just have the whole week off, but whatever. So I have three FINAL papers due on December 6th. I have really only started on one of them. They are all 10 page papers. Sounds fun I know! Hopefully I can use the first few days of break to relax and hopefully on the last two days I can crank out some work. If I want to be less stressed when I get back I must do that because I have a presentation the Wednesday after break, so I really need to prepare for it. 

I am really looking forward to being home for 5 days. I have only been home three times this semester and its been for a max of two days. I went home last week for a doctors appointment and I was home for less than 24 hours. It was nice sleeping in my own bed though.

Being lazy is my number one priority, but let's be real I will probably get bored come Wednesday at 2 PM. I know I am pathetic and cannot be easily entertained. What stinks about this break is that it is a tease for Christmas break and when we come back we have to GRIND and everything is sped up. 

What do you have planned for Thanksgiving Break?

Srat Life

Hello everyone!!

School has been c r a z y!! Classes are really gearing up... I turned in my first paper last week (Chicago style, mind you) and it was very stressful. First of all, I have no idea of how to use Chicago style. Footnotes are so confusing and microsoft word kept messing up as I was creating the footnotes. Honestly the paper drained me soooo much that I literally did no work the rest of the week, which I know is really bad! In my defense, I have crazy anxiety and first graded assignments tear me up inside! I woke up the next morning with one of my classic post stress headaches which are the WORST.

In more exciting news: I received a bid from Alpha Chi Omega!!!

Tbh, before even enrolling at Carolina Alpha Chi was always a sorority that captured my attention. Then, during the first round (which is a whirlwind) I just had this feeling like "yessss, that's where I want to be" Now, I did have a fairly open mind for all of the other sororities on campus and it wasn't the only one I pictured myself at either, but I had good feeling from the get go. Our bid day theme was "Alpha Chi Land"  like candyland. It was super cute. Everyone was super friendly.

I am really excited for the rest of the semester with all of my new sisters!!

What's Next?

Okay, I'm going to be honest... school is difficult... okay my classes really are not that bad. What makes it so bad for me is time managment. I have no clue how to do it. I get so overwhelmed and then procrastinate when my assisgnments aren't even that hard. 

I received my grade back for second of three tests back for the semester and I made a D+ making my average a D. I thought I just did bad on the first test because I wasn't sure what to expect, but that was not the case. I don't know how to take notes, organize my time, and study effectively anymore. This whole semester has been about transitioning. I was in all the pre-req classes to get into the journalism school because I thought it was something I wanted to do for the rest of my life.

What made me change my mind again?

For one, I love media too much. That sounds crazy, but I like to use Twitter and Instagram for fun. Not to say I wouldn't be over the moon if my blog didn't take off one day. But if I had stuck with this major and getting such a late start I felt like I would be in an entry level position for longer than anticipated if I even got a job right away. Plus, it can be a negative atmosphere... reporting on things going on is just depressing to me.

So what's my new major?

Well, I decided to go with management and society. I am sure you have never heard of it. This major is a business degree through the sociology department. Most people end up working in Human Resources positions aka lots of job security! My course load involves some psych, soc, and economic classes. I think it will be a good mix for me unlike the journalism school. 

Maybe I am just tired of my current classes, but I am looking forward to being in classes that will actually interest me hopefully and just motivate me more overall. I am also considering a minor in Urban and City Planning. I am taking one of the first classes for it next semester. I originally intended to be an education minor, but I was not accepted (still a little salty about). 

Here's my biggest problem... the thought of working from 9-5 everyday for the rest of my life SCARES me. People have done this for generations, but the routine scares me. I guess it's because I have not had a solid routine since high school. I don't know, this is just something that I think about a lot I feel pretty selfish writing it down for the world to see. They always say "find something you love and you'll never work a day in your life" and that is what I am trying to keep telling myself when the negative thoughts come my way.

Are you ready for next semester? Do the thoughts of committing to a job scare you?

Happy Monday!

Bailey

A Time to Rant

So I have finally taken my L A S T midterms. Thank goodness!!!!! For those of you who do not know, I have terrible anxiety. 

Halloween is a really big deal at my school and I had a paper due Sunday at noon. I forced myself to get my paper done Saturday afternoon so I could go out with my friends. I also had a test Monday. 

Well I could not get myself to start on my paper... I literally did everything possible to avoid it. I mopped the kitchen of my apartment and put everyone's dishes away. I sat at my computer for about two hours with just an opening paragraph. At 1 AM, I just began to cry and cry. It was awful. I took a shower and sat down and cranked out four of the six pages. Maybe crying is a solution to everything? Idk. I ended up going to bed after the four pages were done around 3:30.

My anxiety has really gotten to me this semester. Probably from having a larger and tougher course load all while being in a completely new environment. I am trying to make friends, be involved, and try to do well in my classes.

I got my grade back for my Digicon class. I didn't do terribly on it, but my teacher wanted me to meet with her since she knows I'm a transfer student etc. She told me she definitely saw potential for me to do really well in the class. I just need help with my writing (So, why am I blogging?? I really wish I knew) I told her I wasn't sure if journalism is really what I want to pursue. She made an appointment for me to meet with the Dean of the journalism school which should be interesting.

Today in class, I received an email that my decision for my minor had been released. I applied to the education minor. (Note: I don't even know what I want to major in.) I always loved playing school, but due to my anxiety I never knew if I could handle a classroom setting. Over the last few years, I have been exposed to more kids, like this summer with the BEST babysitting job. I really have a passion for them. I thought why not minor in education so I have something to fall back on... well I'm sure you guessed it by now but I got rejected. 

My spirits are definitely a little down and it just adds to the Monday Blues.

But here's to almost being done with my first semester!

Bailey

First Few Weeks

These past two weeks have been a whirlwind to say the least, but oh so fun! My roommates and I get along sooooo well. I have joined YoungLife on campus and I am in L O V E.  Everyone there is so sweet and Christ definitely shines through each and every person I have met.

My classes are meh. I'm taking a German History class... don't remember why I signed up for this. It is so hard. My teacher assigns us tons and tons of readings and I keep procrastinating them. I actually FORGOT to do a discussion board for the class. That was my wake up call to get more track of my assignments. And yes, I do own a planner. I'm in a 500 level class called "Digital Media Economics and Behavior". It was the only journalism class I could get into without actually being in the major for the time being.

Speaking of switching majors...I'm a psychology major. I took a career assessment the other day before class because I really am not sure what it is that I want to do. I really feel like I want to work in PR, but I just wanted to see what a good fit for me was. The test said I should be a psychology or education major. How crazy is that though?! But I really want to challenge myself and do PR and maybe minor in education because honestly, I've always wanted to be a teacher, I'm not confident if I could be in a classroom setting. 

I'm in a transfer seminar class which is fun because I am connecting with other junior transfers like me! I do have a comparative politics class, but we have only met twice, which is fine by me. 

I have actually just been hired to work in the Undergraduate Library a few hours a week which will be nice having a little bit of income. I didn't sign up for many hours because I really want to get adjusted and not overdo it. I have also been accepted as a team member for the campus fashion magazine for social media! I'm really excited for this. I'm not sure all it will entail, but I'm obsessed with blogs and fashion and social media so this is right up my alley. 

Recruitment was actually supposed to begin tonight and tomorrow, but there has been a virus outbreak in the Greek community! I hope everyone feels better soon!

How have your first few weeks of school been?

Bailey

New Chapter

Wow! Long time, no writing! 2017 has been CRAZY to say the least. It started off pretty rocky. April was definitely the turning point for the outlook on the year when I got accepted into my DREAM school! In two weeks, I will be moving to Chapel Hill where I will be attending the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill! I cried when I received my acceptance letter! 

So that's why I am writing. I am hoping that I can find the time to maintain this blog more and I feel like I will more to share through new experiences and people I meet! Speaking of new people, I just got my roommate assignments the other night. One of the girls I'm living with I met on a tour and we just clicked and I think we will be great together. The other two girls living in the apartment are friends, we do not know each other. They seem SUPER sweet and I can't wait to see our friendships to begin forming! I am going to rush to hopefully meet more girls!

I am so ready for this next chapter in my life. I have been waiting for this day for about twenty years now and it is so great to see everything come together for once. 

Are you ready to go back to school?

Bailey